Considering 30 Days of Deity Devotion

Because I need a new blogging project, obviously, when I haven’t even completed 30 Days of Paganism.

Actually, I think it can work. I’ll obviously continue to do my 30 Days of Paganism, as I am inspired to write the posts — and I can do the 30 Days of Deity Devotion on the same, no-schedule schedule. As the posts come to me. (Trying to put them all out in 30 consecutive days is a recipe for madness.)

I’m thinking, though, that I’ll be posting them at my shrine blogs for each deity (Brighid, the Morrigan, Manannan, and Aphrodite/Naamah/Aphrodite-Naamah) — and if I choose to do the project for a deity I don’t have a shrine blog for, I’ll post those posts here. This gives me something I can do on a semi-regular basis for my shrine blogs, so they don’t sit gathering dust.

This also, obviously, works in my whole “writing and art as devotional work” thing. So I do think it’s a good idea.

The post that gave me the idea to do this can be found here, at The Lefthander’s Path. I’ll be adding my own page about it shortly.

-Morag

 

30 Days of Paganism: Beliefs – Birth, death and rebirth

From the perspective of the faith I’ve been building I haven’t actually given this part a lot of thought — I think I’ve just sort of grafted my personal ideas onto it.

Which makes sense, as the faith I’m building is being built out of my nebulous thoughts and ideas about the world and the gods and my role in all of this.

So. Uh.

I give the idea of birth — of the universe, of our souls, of Being — some thought in The Story of the Smith. I also touch on death and rebirth.

My beliefs are influenced by science, Reclaiming, and Buddhism. I’ve always believed in reincarnation; it just made the most sense. The universe’s way of recycling.  Later, I learn that matter cannot be destroyed or created, merely changed. This supports my belief in reincarnation. When I read about Reclaiming, and the cycle of birth/growth/death/decay/regeneration, it adds to what I’ve always known, further clarifying it in how it relates to the world around me.

I don’t give much thought to the afterlife. If anything, I think we’re given a brief time of rest between death and rebirth, in a neutral between-life place, where we can choose to learn or relax or whatever. But beyond that, it doesn’t matter. We’re born, we live, we die, we’re born again. Birth, growth, death, decay, regeneration.

I see people make the argument that because of reincarnation, whatever we do in this life doesn’t matter — we’ll reroll in a little while.

It’s not like creating alts in World of Warcraft. You don’t just get to reroll as a pally because your rogue keeps getting ganked and start with a fresh slate. (I sucked at playing rogues. Stealth is…not my strong suit.)

All the myriad factors that went into creating you, with your personality, quirks, hopes, dreams, ambitions, ways of seeing the world — they’re unique. They’re not going to create you, as you are in this life, again. When you die, I may believe that some part of your essence goes on to live again, but it’s like taking a glass of water, dumping it into the ocean, and then scooping out another glass of water from that same spot in the sea. There may be some molecules of water from the original glass in the next one, but it’s not the same glass of water.

This is why every life is precious, and this is why what we do in this life matters so much.

This is also why I see attaining enlightenment as unimportant. I am not concerned with levelling until I reach level cap. (Yes, continuing with the WoW metaphor, because it’s working for me.) I am concerned with clearing out all the Murlocs from Eversong Woods before I move on to the Ghostlands.

I am concerned with doing good work while I am here to do it. If, eventually, I do reach enlightenment, I will honestly probably come back so I can continue to do good work. (I don’t think I’ll ever reach it, though, so it’s a moot point. I reaaaally don’t have what it takes to be a Bodhisattva.)

If, indeed, enlightenment is even something that can be classified/attained linearly. If, indeed, enlightenment is a state reached and not actions taken.

In The Story of the Smith, souls are created when sparks fly off the striking of the Smith’s hammer to anvil. They cannot really be created, however; they were always there, when the Smith’s house is tiny and cramped in the still-dark, and they are there when the house has expanded to create the large universe. At the end of the Smith’s day, the universe contracts again until it is very small, and things grow cold while the Smith and the Others sleep before the next day.

And within that huge cycle of the universe’s birth, growth, death, decay, and regeneration, within that huge cycle that mirrors the seasons of our year, we play out the same cycles in miniature, as does all the life contained in the universe.

In my myth, the Smith is birth. The Phantom is life — the spirit that gives life breath. And the Deep One is death.

When I wrote it, I thought of Brighid as the Smith, the Morrigan as the Phantom, and Manannan as the Deep One — but the primordial creator beings could be represented by any three deities you choose, or one deity, or no deity — they could remain abstract. There’s lots of room for interpretation.

So. In this nameless religion I am building from the ground up, how do birth, death, and rebirth fit? 

Brighid is birth. She is the divine midwife; She is the sun that coaxes plants to bloom. She is a mother — to Her child, to Her Work. She creates on all levels, down to the very universe itself, which is Her house. Being made of star stuff, we are made of Brighid-stuff.

When we give thanks for being born, we give thanks to Brighid. When we need help birthing something or someone new into the world, we ask Brighid for help.

The Morrigan is life. She is the blood flowing through our veins; Ze is the loamy earth upon which we make love. All the hot passions of living are Hers; all the agony of fighting constantly belongs to Zir. She is the earth’s heartbeat — from when it starts to when it ends. Because Ze is life, She is also when life needs to be pruned — Ze is the power of the knife.

When we feel our hearts beating so fast we think we might die and we know we’re truly alive, we’re in Her space. When we need the strength to fight, to keep life livable for ourselves and others, Ze will help us. When we need to cut away the dead branches that do not belong, it is Her power that lends us the blade.

Manannan is death. If the Morrigan is the one who cuts off the dead branches, He is the one who gathers them up and takes them to their resting place. He is the Welcomer; He is the Gatekeeper. He is the shepherd of bodiless souls. His realm, the ocean, is not a place humans can walk freely — it is still mysterious and dangerous to us. It is the underworld.

When we die, it is Manannan who greets us on the other side, who takes us to where we need to be. When we need comfort, it is Manannan we can call on — because He knows the pain we go through, and He can give us guidance and love as we navigate those rocky waters ourselves. When we need help dealing with the death of someone in our lives, we can call upon Manannan for entrance into those mysteries; we can ask Him to lend us a lamp so we may find our way.

You can see there is overlap here — Manannan is the ocean and Brighid is the sun, but Manannan is also the rain — water that goes up into the atmosphere, near the sun, and then rains down onto the land — the Morrigan’s realm. The sun helps the land and the upper reaches of the ocean thrive, and the land and the ocean work together to make life continue.

None of these realms are separate from each other, and neither are the gods I see as ruling these areas. They work together as integral parts of a whole.

Just like birth, death, and rebirth.

Happy Imbolc

Today is Imbolc!

I was going to write a ritual for today, but I ended up not. At this point it’ll be rushed and not that good, so instead I’m going to focus on cleaning, writing, and self-care today — all things in Brighid’s realm.

I put out my brats at midnight last night, when I woke up after going to bed at 7pm (I fell back asleep at 2am, then woke up for the day at 7am). I’ve been sleeping a lot since Thursday; it was a tiring day.

My brats are a kerchief I wear on my shifts, my Brighid scarf, and the brat and cross sent to me in the Cill Imbolc exchange. They’ve all been blessed now, and they’re back inside.

Tonight is also the night we gain access to our new place, so I’m starting the process of moving house. I’ll be moving in some kitchen items tonight. Tuesday I’ll probably go over and do some energetic cleansing and warding, as well as bringing over boxes of books and some bookcases.

If you celebrate it, have a blessed Imbolc. (If you don’t, I hope you had a good day regardless.)

-Morag

Weekly Ritual, January 29th

I did my ritual this morning, right after I woke up, like I said I’d try to do last week. It worked much better — put me in a better state for the day. (Relative; my tooth pain has been catastrophic for 2 days and I haven’t slept much, so I’m really only functioning at about 50% — which is an improvement over yesterdays’ 35%-if-we’re-being-generous!)

The breakdown:

  • Before casting the circle, I created sacred space. I’d never done that in this apartment and it made the ritual feel a lot better. Made some holy water; flicked salt and water in the corners of the room, and then took the incense and fire around too.
  • I didn’t light any sage, and likely won’t be for a while — we’re probably moving in the next few weeks and burning sage smells enough like burning pot (especially to folks not overly familiar with either) that there would likely be awkward questions. The incense stood in as sage, and is light and airy enough that I should be able to use it in the new place.
  • I cast my sphere without messing it the hell up!
  • The Chenrezig meditation is getting better/easier. I’m starting to rock back and forth naturally when I do it, which, if I recall correctly, is a good sign, and I barely noticed when I finished my second round. It’s getting easier to focus on the meditation and let distracting thoughts float through me.
  • While praying with my prayer beads, I did my standard prayers and then…just talked to the Three. I thanked Brighid and Manannan for helping us find a place, and asked Brighid for Her blessing in the new house. I talked to my Father about my nervousness and trepidations — not so much about living with Ogre but about me fucking everything up. I don’t have a good history with landlords; the only great one I had was my last one. So it’s nerve-wracking. And when I spoke to the Morrigan I…solidified some boundaries that I hadn’t, previously, and the fact I hadn’t solidified them had been bugging me. (It’s not something I really want to go into detail on here on the blog; sorry.)
  • After chatting with the gods I felt pretty good, like I’d gotten stuff off my chest I can’t via journalling or just chatting with mortals. So I think I’m going to have this be a regular prayer practice for me: chatting with Them. Also, I kissed my prayer beads after reach prayer, which felt good and natural, so I’ll be continuing that as well.
  • I took down the sphere and blew out the candles and extinguished the incense, and then I went to go eat breakfast.
  • Ritual today helped solidify some thinky-thoughts I’d been having about syncretism, and I blogged a bit about syncretizing Aphrodite and Naamah on the shrine blog I keep for Her. I might talk more about that and the other Companions of Elua here (or there, or both), later. (Oh noes, pop culture paganism! Hide your kids, hide your dog! So say we all, motherfrakkers!) 

Weekly ritual seems to be shaping up pretty well for me. I may actually have a workable practice by the time the year ends; go figure.

Side note: yes, we found a place, and you may notice some minor changes to the blog here and my other presences on the web as I further compartmentalize myself. These things are related, but I’m not going into detail. You can probably guess, though.

I’m going to try and blog again before next week’s ritual. Imbolc is this weekend and I feel I should probably, oh, you know, do something for it? Just a thought.

-Morag

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Evolutionary Witchcraft, Chapter 1: initial reactions

Cover of "Evolutionary Witchcraft"
Cover of Evolutionary Witchcraft

I’ve been trying to work on the reading project I mentioned a few months ago, wherein I’d read a chapter of The Spiral Dance and Evolutionary Witchcraft and post about it here. It was my hope that by making this a project for the blog I’d a) actually finish those books and b) maybe actually work through them.

I’m having difficulty. While reading chapter 1 of Evolutionary Witchcraft I’ve felt…not a crisis of faith, for it has nothing to do with my belief in the gods, but a lack of resonance. The book used to resonate with me when I read it and now it doesn’t.

I’ve spent 2 hours trying to write a post on why it no longer resonates with me, but I can’t pinpoint what my point is. I don’t know what I’m trying to say. I’m having a serious case of Written Output Weakness (a manifestation of auditory processing deficit). I just know that something about the statement that running Feri energy will change my life I’m having…a lot of trouble with, when I didn’t before.

Perhaps it was because when I first read this book, I wanted my life to change, and now I don’t.

I don’t know, but. I am having an emotional reaction to this book, and to the fact that I’ve spent 2 hours trying to write this post and have only managed to churn out 1700 words of indecipherable garbage wherein I contradict myself a million times before deleting it in a fit of rage.

So I suppose this is part of the reading project, too. Talking about why it’s troubling me, even if I can’t figure out what I mean.

I’m not sure if I’ll post again on Chapter 1. I haven’t finished it yet, so there may be another post. Or this may be it.

*flaps hands in frustration*

-Morag

Weekly Ritual, January 22nd, 2014

Yesterday was basically a lost day, so I didn’t get a chance to type up anything about the ritual I did on Wednesday. (I was super super tired yesterday. I’m surprised I accomplished anything at all. No spoons.)

So my ritual on Wednesday was a little different. This time, I started with lighting three candles, instead of just two. I then cast a sphere, which I’ve not done in a while, because I felt I should start practicing that again and get good at it. The one I do is Reclaiming/Feri-esque, but I didn’t remind myself of how it’s actually done before I did it so I’m not sure if I botched it or not.

I started in the east and went around to the north, then did above, below, and center. The sphere is cast with blue Feri fire.

By the air that is Her breath,
By the fire of Her bright spirit,
By the waters of Her womb,
By the earth that is Her body,
By all the powers above,
And all the powers below,
and the Centre, which is the circumference of all,
this sphere is cast.

I have to admit I don’t really like the bit for the west/water. I’m used to saying it, but it rubs me the wrong way (and has for a while). This is no doubt because, while I’m fine using feminine-as-neutral pronouns, or calling the underlying force in the universe the Goddess, I still see it as beyond gender or sex. Giving Her a womb essentializes her to having a body we classify as female, and…it bugs me.

So I’m thinking of ways to change that. There are other “waters” in the body, after all, that one could use — tears, sweat, spit, blood. By the waters of Her tears; by Her flowing blood; by the sweat on Her brow; by Her life-giving spit…. There are options, is what I’m saying, that don’t make Her body “female”.

Anyway. After casting the sphere, I did my Chenrezig meditation — two rounds around the mala. I’ve been trying to make a habit of doing two rounds, three times a week (Tues/Weds/Thurs). This week I made 2/3 days, so, not bad. Next week I’ll do 3/3, and when I’ve got that habit down for a while, I’ll up it to 4 days a week.

I then went around each set of prayer beads with my prayers to Brighid, the Morrigan, and Manannan. I feel like this part of my ritual needs more. They need more. I’m not sure what though.

After all this I took down the sphere (starting in the centre and moving backwards), but I’m pretty sure I fucked up the directions. I did my ritual late, and was pretty tired. And then I blew out the candles and went and started this post, by which I mean I wrote in the title and hit “Save Draft”.

Next week: I’m attempting to do the ritual in the morning, before I do much else for the day (except showering). And I’m figuring out what else I can do for the Three.

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Conquering the Hekspoffer (Hexipuff) and oh gods not this fight again

Bee Keeper's Quilt: Tiny Owl Knits pattern hon...
Photo credit: chronographia

I have spent the past few days working out how to make a hexipuff type thing — a double sided hexagon that can be stuffed with fleece or scrap yarn — via trial and error. After a lot of the first and more of the second, I have finally come up with a working pattern for it and can start making the little buggers.

Now, you may ask me, Why would you do this Morag? There’s a pattern out there by Tiny Owl Knits that you can buy; it’s for the whole Beekeeper’s Quilt! Why would you put yourself through knitting torture?

Well, for one, I don’t have $5.50 for a pattern right now, nor will I for quite some time, and I am impatient. I wanted a hexipuff-thing now, or now-ish, and it only took me 3 days of working it out on my own (with a little help from this video, which gave me a starting point for casting on).

Two, far as I can tell, the original pattern calls for sock yarn and tiny needles, and I…do not work well with those. I wanted something in worsted weight, with bigger needles, because I have big hands and big hands hurt with small needles and small yarn.

And three…I don’t really want to financially support Tiny Owl Knits. For all that there are many cute patterns on that site that I would love to give a whirl, and gods would I love a copy of Woodland Knits, there is this pattern. And there is something very wrong with this pattern.

The title has a racial slur in it.

(Ok, actually, there are two things wrong with it — one is the racial slur, and the other is that it’s not a bloody petticoat. Petticoats are underskirts, not jackets with ruffles.)

I mean, come on, World, we’ve had this argument before! I see this all the time in the pagan netosphere, and the pagan meatspace-o-sphere, and now I’m seeing it in the knitosphere too. “Gypsy” is a racial slur. It’s not a word you should be using for your religious path and it’s certainly not a word you should be using for your knitting pattern. Not only that, it’s completely unnecessary — I often seen people complaining about being called on using the word “shaman” incorrectly, because “There are no alternatives!” Well, there is an alternative to gypsy. Bohemian.  No, it’s not entirely unproblematic — but it conveys the same sense that people are trying to get across when they use gypsy, and it’s not a fucking racial slur.

We have romanticized the lives of the Rroma and other Travelling peoples and adopted what we think of as their culture because it’s shiny and flashy. Meanwhile we ignore the very real marginalization and oppression going on against them, and use a word that we have no right to reclaim.

I’m sure Stephanie Dosen is a fine person, and I’m not accusing her of being some terrible racist monster. Her patterns are gorgeous, including the one that’s unfortunately named; she obviously is a very talented knitter. I’m sure naming the pattern “Gypsy Petticoat” was done in ignorance and perhaps no one has called her on it. Which is why I’ll be sending her an email, if I can find her email address.

Or heck, maybe she is Rroma, and I’m in the wrong here. I’m willing to admit when I’ve made a mistake.

But until I know for sure either way — and if it was done in ignorance, until she’s taken steps to rectify it — I won’t be supporting Tiny Owl Knits.

I will be knitting my own double sided hexagons, for my own blanket or quilt or jacket. If you don’t stuff them, they are flat enough to make clothing that would be pretty warm. I know this because I was so tired as I finished up the last test run — the perfect one — that I forgot to stuff it before binding off.

If you sewed enough of the flat ones together, in a certain way, you could probably make yourself a reversible jacket or sweater. In fact, I’ll be experimenting with that — half of them I’ll stuff, and half I’ll keep flat.

I’m calling my little guys hekspoffers.  (Heks means witch. Poffers means pancakes. They’re witch pancakes. Because, obviously, when a witch makes a pancake, it’s six-sided and reversible and done in stockinette.)

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Childhood Religion and Conversion: from Buddhism to Witchcraft and back again

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Conversion is something that’s been on my mind for the past week or so, and not just because it’s part of what we’re discussing this month for The Cauldron Blog Project.

In my weekly rituals so far, I’ve done the Chenrezig meditation with my mala. I’ve been doing the Chenrezig off and on for most of my life, and I’ve gone through several malas. I’ve had a Buddha statue as part of my altar for a while, and I have a Thangka hanging in my hall at home. Tara has always been a part of my life, in some way, whether that’s through actual devotion to Her or just…thinking about Her.

I was raised with these things. Buddhist rituals were my fundamental religious upbringing. Mom played the 21 Praises of Tara for me in the car, and Wind Horses. [Tibetan] Buddhism is the closest thing I have to a childhood religion, though not all Buddhists consider it religion (my mom doesn’t, for example).

English: Painting of Buddhist goddess Green Ta...
Green Tara by Prithvi Man Chitrakari done in 1947. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I have plans to get a Green Tara tattoo, somewhere on my body, though the last two places I had in mind have since been claimed/reserved by Brighid and Manannan for Their ink. I try and live my life by the Eightfold Path as I understand it. I try and hold lovingkindness and compassion for all living creatures…even the ones I kill. (There are rules I must make, for my own continued existence; I must have lovingkindness for myself, too, and I cannot if I’m letting bugs or rodents infest my house, or if I’m eating the incorrect diet for my body. I must keep space for myself. It’s a tricky line to walk.)

Yes, I do curse people, and I do see this as justice. It’s Right Action to me. I don’t see it as conflicting with the Buddhist thoughts with which I’ve been raised. I watched the world step on my mother for too long to believe that standing aside and doing nothing was the right course of action.

The Eightfold Path calls for non-harmful speech and action — but when silence and doing nothing in the face of injustice causes more harm, you weigh the hurt your words and deeds may cause, and you decide which choice causes less harm. It is impossible to live without hurting other beings. You have to find the best way. And sometimes, compassion means kicking a little ass. Sometimes, the least hurtful way you can act towards someone is to cause them pain — lancing an infected boil is always painful but it will allow healing to happen.

That is how I understand the Eightfold Path, and that is how I follow it.

I believe in reincarnation, and some form of enlightenment. I also believe we spend time between lives resting and taking stock, and I believe that in each life we are a different individual — even if we have distinct souls or spirits that go on to be reborn. I don’t believe, however, that liberation from samsara is or should be the goal — I believe life has more reason than suffering, and we are corporeal beings for a purpose beyond escaping corporeal existence. 

English: rudraksha mala and stone mala
rudraksha mala and stone mala (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

So this week I’m realizing I’m more Buddhist than I give myself credit for. I always have been, since childhood. It’s always been a part of my life. When confused or stressed, I go back to om mani padme om, around the mala.

Which leads me to wonder about conversion. We often think about conversion as a moment, an epiphany. The popular narratives around conversion support this idea. But the thread at TC made it clear that that is only one model of conversion — conversion can also be a process, taking many years.

I never really saw myself as converting to paganism. I sort of converted to neo-Wicca, in my teens, but I grew away from that religion as I grew older (and honestly, I’m not sure if I ever was really Wiccan, or if I just held onto it because it seemed like my only option for religious witchcraft). Since I started on the path of paganism, however, I’ve always identified as a witch — but I wouldn’t consider that a conversion, either. I don’t see witchcraft as something one can convert to any more than I see…cooking, or carpentry as something one can convert to. (Specific religious witchcraft traditions are a different thing, and one can convert to those. …this is getting complicated. Basically, witchcraft as a craft is not something I see as being possible to convert to, but witchcraft as a religion is — and the difference between those two things is hazy and grey and murky and difficult to define at best. Your mileage, as always, may vary.)

I never really saw myself as converting to Buddhism, either, but I never really left it. And now I’m sitting here wondering if this has been what my long, winding spiritual road has been about: conversion to being a Buddhist Witch. 

Because that is now the term that comes to mind when I think of my path. More specifically, an Eclectic Polytheistic Buddhist Witch. With a dash of mysticism.

Is this what is happening to me? Dipping in and out of my childhood religion, sometimes rejecting the idea outright of my being a Buddhist, only to find myself converting to it when I’m twenty-seven?

I’m actually thinking of taking refuge, which is…sort of like conversion to Buddhism. (It is sort of odd to be talking about conversion to Buddhism. It’s my childhood religion, but it’s not — because to mom, it’s not a religion, and that’s the view of it I had growing up. But now that I’m an adult, I do see it as a religion — so there’s definite conflict in my brain around terms.)

Mom says there’s no conflict between taking refuge and my continuing to be a Witch, or worshipping the gods I worship. I can be Buddhist and these other things.

Yet I feel a sort of…nervousness? Like, what if taking refuge is the wrong thing? What if there is conflict?

I felt the same sort of nervousness before joining ADF, but this is different — because there’s an added fear of disappointing Buddha and Tara. They were my first gods growing up. I don’t want to let Them down.

So I’m left here with a pile of thoughts, threatening to make my head explode, and no real answers. Again.

I suppose I should go to bed and stop running around in mental circles. Maybe the answers will come to me soon.

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Weekly Ritual, January 15th, 2014

Avalokiteśvara, Chenrayzee or Chenrezig statue...
Chenrezig statue (Photo credit: Wonderlane)

Today was time for my weekly ritual. I sat down in front of my portable altar, plugged in the lights, and lit the two candles. I lit some sage and waved the smoke around me, before beginning to meditate. I did two rounds of the Chenrezig meditation this time, and I’ve decided to start doing just that — two rounds around the mala — every day.

After, I did my prayers with my prayer beads. Instead of doing each prayer three times, I did it four times. It seemed to fit better with the length of time it took me to go around the prayer beads.

And that was it. Very quick, very simple. I’d like to try something different next week but I’m not sure what. I’ll need to put some thought into it over the next few days. Perhaps start reading those two books I’m supposed to be reading and get some ideas there.

I did have some troubles getting the sage to stop burning, and ended up having to cut off the burning bits and rewrapping the bundle. Probably time to do that, anyway. It was vaguely amusing, though. I think if I were an observing party I would have laughed heartily at my struggles with the sage bundle, shouting at it to “stop burning, dammit!”

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I am not your dancing monkey

Another pagan has written something that’s pissed me off. Again. Are we surprised? No.

Yet another screed against pop-culture pagans! Yet another pagan saying “Stop being so WEIRD, otherpagans, you’re making us look bad.” Yet another pagan saying that ALL pagans follow some form of Witchcraft; that we all follow the works of Starhawk, Selena Fox, and Z. Budapest.

If you’ve read this blog at all you know I hate Z. Budapest, love Starhawk, and haven’t read a damn thing by Fox. I may be a witch, but I am sure as hell not representative of pagandom. No one is.

However, my favourite part of the post is where he says this (bolding mine):

However, if a person purports to be a Pagan teacher or leader, if they keep a blog on Paganism, if they offer insights into their practices on social media sites, if they lead workshops at an event, then that person represents Paganism and its practice. This is where reality needs to be considered.This is when a person needs to present the commonly held beliefs of Paganism, at least, perhaps doing so before diverging into their less accepted beliefs[…] .

I don’t have the spoons to be polite. Fuck you, buddy.

“Paganism” is not any one thing with a set of commonly-held beliefs. If you kept your head out of your ass and actually fucking paid attention, you’d see that. There are no commonly-held beliefs in paganism. None. Zilch. Nada. The sooner people stop spouting this bullshit as if it’s true, the happier we’ll all be. 

More importantly, my blog does not represent paganism. My blog represents me, my personal spiritual path, and the religion I’m forming. I do use the word pagan to describe myself. I am not all pagans. 

I will say whatever the fuck I want here. I will say whatever the fuck I want on my Twitter or Facebook feeds. And that may include talking about Battlestar Galactica as being a religious experience for me. Or talking about the Kushielverse gods as being real beings one can deal with.

I do not apologize for what I post here, and I do not claim to speak for paganism as a whole. If someone finds my blog and thinks that I’m speaking for paganism as a whole, that’s their problem. Not mine.

If you lack fundamental reading comprehension to the point where you demand that people post to their blogs to your exacting standards so you won’t get confused, then you are an asshole. 

I’m not your dancing monkey. I’m not a dancing monkey for pagandom. I don’t give a shit if you think I’m making you look bad. I will say whatever I want. I will talk about pop-culture paganism. I will defy your definition of what “being pagan” is, because it’s NOT all Wicca-based. I am not all pagans. I am Morag Spinner, fucking awesome witch, and I will talk about my fucking awesome life where I say So say we all in ritual and call upon Leeloo as the Fifth Element. It is my blog. I will say what I want.

And screw you if you think you can tell me otherwise.

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